His body grows weak from a lack of the lovers he once called upon, his heart grows weak from his bitterness, and the weight of the world crashes down upon his already weak mind.
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I killed the conversation then watched as my phone died
These lives I take them: a murder-suicide who survives only I though I doubt my half-life could be more than one fourth of the force my depression applies
This is me drowning in the depths of my surroundings
Low supplies nothin' but sadness n' gloatin' knives
My pain arises I fight it with open eyes cuz my strength of mind is not yet ready to face the darkness behind these eyelids
I close them to hide behind them but find that the price of blindness is enlightenment cause what I find in darkness is what my mind did
It's best to keep away from me so I do not keep hatin' me
Plan backfired back on fire I'm blazin' heat
Smokin' weed razor blade speech to cut my cheeks as I bleed
cutthroat sharp deez thoughts cuttin' deep into my skin I find again so much more of what I don't need
Heart up on my sleeve
Your lipstick on my collar tryna prostitute my time to you but I'm not the worth the dolla's and my parents feared that I could
Be changed from a life wit you my Suicide Goddess you give me the truth
Upper moves gettin' higher cuz I'm tired of deez views
I'm tired of my life new opportunities no I refuse to be a better person
I'm so tired of my life I choose
Death over what's left of my life this bullshit is useless
Like where da noose at? Tied up like corsets gone stupid
N' feelin' loopy
Off pills I'm zooted
Confusin' true love with these drugs I'm abusin' but boosted so act like Ryu did "Hadouken!"
"Who's there?"
I sense a presence detected one head up one head down so what's up my dick is addicted to women addicted to poisons n' venom n’ bein’ addicted to addictions need distance
Quickly slidin' off the deep end I need friction to be applied when I'm thinkin' I need to stop that
Need to stop thinkin' thoughts bad need to pop xan no need to smoke no stop that
Need some blow need some coke need someone to hold me
Need a friend or at least an enemy I'm lonely -
I'm cold see
On dis rooftop but then got cold feet
Now I'm on ground level
Now I'm walkin' down streets
No shoes just bare feet no cares here just concrete and fast traffic I'm what they're honkin' at but I don't speak just continue to walk n' breathe
Even though da last thing I want's to breathe
Just been here wantin' to see the greener other side of things but
I'm startin' to think it's meaningless
Refrain (1X):
Lemme be a sacrifice to my Suicide Goddess
Life ain't much a problem fuh my Suicide Goddess
She could fix my life prolly if she really wanted
So I give praise to my Suicide Goddess
Russian Roulette this a do-or-die promise
If I pull it, do I die? "yes" do you promise?
Noose around neck just hangin' wit da finest
See me give praise to my Suicide Goddess
Lemme be a sacrifice to my Suicide Goddess
Life ain't much a problem fuh my Suicide Goddess
She could fix my life prolly if she really wanted
So I give praise to my Suicide Goddess
Break (1X)
Suicide, Suicide, Suicide…
You decide…whether I keep my life (2X and then is playing faded in background)
Refrain (1x)
Lemme be a sacrifice to my Suicide Goddess